I Quit

I started smoking since I was only 18 years old, but that time it wasn't really a habit yet. I only smoke if I was with friends. When I was 20 years old, I couldn't stop it anymore. Whatever I do, I want the nicotine. I have been smoking for 8 years, I used to smoke one pack a day. There was a lot of times that I tried to quit, there were times that I don't smoke for 2 months at all. But it was hard, specially if you work with people that likes to smoke too. Every break time they always asked me if I want to smoke with them. The first thing that I did everytime I wake up in the morning is smoke, break time at work and sometimes I don't even wait for break time , I had to go and smoke. Until one day I just don't want it anymore. I remember getting off from work, when I got to my car, I was gonna smoke but I decide to throw my cigs away and promise myself to quit, and that was 7 months ago :) I'm so proud to myself that I survived this long, there was times that I want to smoke really bad, but instead of putting cigs in my mouth I chew gum instead :)

Mood

Stress, tired, and wants to be alone is what I'm feeling right now. Hope I will feel better tomorrow

Blogging

It's almost a year that I stop blogging. I had a lot of things that I had to take care of. I still bloghop once in a while though even I wasn't blogging anymore, I just miss reading or visiting my favorite bloggers k :) So now since I have time to blog again, so here I am, but I don't think if I will be as active as before. But I will do my best to post here if I have time.

Clothes

I was looking at my closet today and try to look for clothes that I don't really wear anymore so I can send them to the Philippines. And I found a lot of clothes that I haven't wear yet and tags are still on it that I don't remember that I have them, lol. Before I moved I throw a lot of my shoes away and a lot of my stuff. I had no choice, they don't fit in my car anymore , lol. And thinking about it now, I miss some of the things that I left behind, specially some of the collections that I have. I left a lot of stuff that I worked hard just to have them. Thinking about it now, I regret if why I throw them away, I didn't even think that my family can have them. But oh well, too late now :) next time if ever I'm going to move again I'll know what to do with my stuff now that I vcan't take with me :)

Rain

There was a preacher whose wife was expecting a baby so he went before the congregation and asked for a raise. After much discussion, they passed a rule that whenever the preacher's family expanded, so would his paycheck.After 6 children, this started to get expensive and the congregation decided to hold another meeting to discuss the preacher's salary. There was much yelling and bickering about how much the clergyman's additional children were costing the church.Finally, the preacher got up and spoke to the crowd, "Children are a gift from God", he said. Silence fell on the congregation. In the back pew, a little old lady stood and in her frail voice said, "Rain is also a gift from God, but when we get too much of it, we wear rubbers."And the congregation said, "AMEN"!!!

Friends

The first thing that I do everytime I wake up in the morning is turn the computer on and have my coffee if I feel like having it. Then look at friendster, I will check my friendster first than my e-mails :) I found a lot of my friends and classmates that I lost contact with thru friendster. I found two of my friends that I lost contact with for almost 15 years. I'm so happy to see them again (pictures), and finally have contact with one of them on the phone (she's in Canada). I was so happy that I found some of my classmates also, and our life really change a lot since we graduate. Some of them got married and have kids, some of them are still single and working abroad. I was so happy to see their pictures and to see their family. I miss them all and wish we can have a get together soon. I will not forget all of them, specially my friends from high school because I have so many memories with them, specially with all the troubles that we went through :) Oh, high school life, lol.

Changes

Since I moved from Michigan everything changed. I miss a lot of things that I used to do when I was there. I miss the every weekend shopping with my bestfriend, it's not like I don't shop here anymore but I always have fun everytime were together. I miss her company so bad. I don't even know if I will find another friend like her. I also miss my work, I miss all the people that I used to worked with, I miss all the fun that I had at work and I know that I will not find another job like what I had. I miss all the freedom that I had when I was working there, nobody snitch and everybody mind there own business and nobody gives a shit if what your doing. Sometimes I sit here and think about everything, and there were times that I just wanna pack all my stuff and go back there but I know it's not gonna happen ( well at least for now). It was so hard for me when I left but I had to, and I know that time will come I will start liking the new place and start a new life.

Message of Love

The story is so moving that it left me choice...I received this from a friend who had achoice to make. It said that I had achoice to make too.I've chosen. Now it's your turn tochoose.The story goes that some time ago amother punished her five year olddaughter for wasting a roll ofexpensivegold wrapping paper. Money was tightandshe became even more upset when thechild used the gold paper to decorate abox to put under the Christmas tree.Nevertheless, the little girl broughtthe gift box to her mother the nextmorning and then said,"This is for you, Momma."The mother was embarrassed by herearlier over reaction, but her angerflared again when she openedthe box and found it was empty. Shespoke to her daughter in a harshmanner."Don' t you know, young lady, when yougive someone a present there's supposedto be somethinginside the package?"She had tears in her eyes andsaid, "Oh,Momma, it's not empty! I blew kissesinto it until it was full."The mother was crushed. She fell on herknees and put her arms around herlittlegir l, and she begged her forgivenessforher thoughtless anger.An accident took the life of the childonly a short time later, and it is toldthat the mother kept that gold box byher bed for all the years of her life.Whenever she was discouraged orfaced difficult problems she would openthe box and take out an imaginary kissand remember the love of the child whohad put it there.In a very real sense, each of us, ashuman beings, have been given a Goldenbox filled with unconditional love andkisses from our children, family,friends and GOD. There is no moreprecious possession anyone could hold.

April Fools

Happy April's Fools Day To All!!

Enjoy today!!!